Lets make a list...

So I have these things about me, that I go a little overboard with. That, in a good size isn't bad, but if you overdo it then it's just not cool at all. And I don't have a problem with any of them I just kind of wanted to examine whatever it is hat I needed to work on.

1.) I worry too much. I really really do. Prime example, if/when Weezy is sick, I worry. I worry a lot. I want to be there for her to take care of her so she won't have to lift a finger. I don't worry about me though. Me I could care less about. But people that I hold very dear to me, I worry and it's just not good. I don't really have a good explanation about why I worry though. Why I care nothing about my own health and well being but would totally devote myself to someone else's. Maybe it's because of exactly what I said. I care more about them, then I do myself.

2.) I'm too hard on myself. And that's just one of my problems. Other people really aren't hard on me so I feel as if I have to be hard on myself to kind of push myself. I know, most of the times I don't show it. But I do it about the small stuff. The little stuff I mess up on and makes my friends mad. Or the stupid stuff I do and don't really consider other people's feelings. And it sucks. But again, I feel as though, if I'm hard on myself then I'll aspire more and get better more also. I also think I HAVE to be hard on myself. And sometimes it's good and others it's not.

3.) I miss Weezy too much. Now this one might sound a little weird and sappy. But I just miss her. Like recently I didn't see her for two days and I missed her. I miss her when I'm not with her for 10 minutes. It's just me. Why do I miss her so much? Because I feel more complete when she's around. I feel more complete when I'm holding her hand and I just feel more like the person I want to be. When we didn't date or anything of that sort I just wasn't as happy on the inside. Weezy's that girl to me. That one girl you find in your life that just completes you and makes you much more happier. Some people say I'm stupid for getting caught up in a girl this early in my life. But I don't really care, I am caught up and I love it. I know, how sappy is that. But it's ok she means more to me than anybody else and I'm not going to be an idiot about anything again that concerns her. I don't want to lose her again. She means wayy to much for me to chance losing her again. That's why I miss her, because every second I'm not around her, I just don't feel myself.