Being Human.

I sat here for a while... Trying to figure out a good subject to post about.

And I felt kind of bad because I have a lot of drafts half-written. But I was trying to think of something that didn't focus on... God.

It was hopeless.

I know all of my posts go back on something to do with God. And if you examine the posts you realize that I'm typing about these because it's things that I struggle with myself. Then you have to ask yourself, "If he's struggling with all of these things, and he admits it, why is he trying to tell me how to make it better? Does he even listen to his own advice?"

The answer: I have no clue. And I try.

I'm clueless when it comes to why I do these things. Why do I blog about stuff that I'm struggling with? Isn't it suppose to be something private that you don't want anybody to know about? Why would you want someone to know that you aren't perfect? Because it helps me be human. I try not to hide anything I'm struggling with in hopes that someone out there that knows more than me can help me out. And what better way to make it public than a blog?

Helps you be human?! Yeah. I think a lot of us are caught up in trying to be more. Trying to be this robot that our parents want us to be. Trying to be this push-over that our friends or significant other would so love for us to be. And all any of us are is human. Don't try to be more than you are, or less for that matter. God made us as humans. He didn't make us animals or angels. So why should we try to act like them?

Not try to act like an angel? Yes. Angels were created before humans in the timeline of creation. But, angels are suppose to be perfect and holy and that's what God wants us to be right? He wants us to strive to be that way. He wants to know we have the desire to be closer to Him. We will never achieve the closeness we ultimately want while we're here on earth being what God made us to be. Humans. So understand you are human, you make mistakes, and you're not perfect. It's ok. God intended it to be that way.

God intended it to be that way? But Hoyt, Adam and Eve were made as perfect people. But once they sinned and ate the apple that's when we were condemned to mess up for the rest of our lives. So initially God wanted us to be perfect. Right? Kind of. Do you think, if God wanted us to be perfect after Eve ate the apple and offered it to Adam that God succumbed to us? Thought there was nothing more he could do? No. He could've wiped everything away again and started fresh. But he didn't. He chose to grant us the gift of free will. It's part of this grace thing God is good at. Be thankful. We don't deserve it but God saw fit to give it to us. Praise Him for it.

So you take your own advice, right? Ask anybody who ever gives advice. It's harder for somebody to listen to their own advice rather than take somebody else's. I try to listen to myself. To look at my blogs, know I'm struggling with whatever it might be, and help myself. But sometimes it doesn't work. But I hope it helps other people. I think when I'm done helping people, myself included, I'll be dead. I sure won't blog anymore after that happens eh?